Mistress of self-sabotage, at your service...

I'm feeling a tad run down today. At first, I thought it was simply the hectic work week. Then I really started thinking about it...I do this to myself. It's my own way of being self-defeatist...here's what I do.

First, I always plan the night before to go to bed early, so I can get an earlier start on my day. I figure this would leave me with an opportunity to eat breakfast for a change...maybe go to the gym. Ok, who am I kidding...while the gym pops into my head, I a) don't like to be all sweaty and gross at work all day and, before you say it, b) I hate showering in the locker room! So until I can get over those issues, no working out in the morning.

So, my first self-sabotage is I consistently stay up late...at least 1am on most nights. Sometimes I even stay up as late as 2 or 3am. Inevitably I feel run-down (like today) or crabby and in no mood to stay on track w/ eating right/excercise. On those run down mornings I just want what's easy...even if it's a chocolate muffin and a Chai from Starbucks. This morning, I resisted the Starbuck's urge...but man did I want to go!!

I guess this leads in to my second form of self-sabotage which is my propensity to skip meals...I rarely eat breakfast and often end up skipping lunch as well. I know I shouldn't...but I do it anyway. This leads me to overeat at dinner time, "Yes please, I will have the extra helping of spaghetti!" or worse, I cave by late afternoon and pounce on the vending machines like I had just been rescued from a deserted island (when "desserted island" would be more like it!!).

So, I guess this leads me to what goals I need to set in order stay on track:

GOAL 1) Set (and keep) a reasonable bedtime: in bed, lights out, by 11:00pm on weekday Sun - Thur; 1am on the weekend Fri-Sat.
--To accomplish this I will: not read in bed, not watch tv in bed. Turn on the DVR to record any late night programs I would like to watch.

GOAL 2) Eat breakfast every day which has a serving of protein (eggs or cottage cheese & fruit)
--To accomplish this I will: Set alarm for an hour ealier than normal, including the weekend; ask R to wake me up when he leaves for work.

GOAL 3) Eat lunch every day--something healthy w/ balance to it.
--To accomplish this, I will: put it on my daily schedule to go to lunch. It will be an appt. I need to keep with myself, every day.

GOAL 4) Excercise at least twice a week
--To accomplish this, I will: Bring my gym clothes to work so I can use the quiet of Tue/Thur afternoon to go to the on-site gym. Also, when I go to lunch, I will walk to get it...if I go someplace close, I will vary my walking path in order to make my walks at least 10 min. each way.

So this starts today. Tonight, my goal is to be in bed by 1am.

My weekend goals:

SATURDAY:
Food--Wake up earlier than normal and make breakfast. Eggs & coffee.
Excercise--Do something active w/ R that we normally don't do. Take a walk, a short hike at the local park, or even yard work.

SUNDAY:
Food--Wake up earlier than normal and have breakfast. Go shopping for breakfast foods for next week. Take them to work so I don't have to remember each morning.
Exercise--walk, reg. housework

So, that seems like a lot to me...but it's all very doable. I will see how I do over the weekend and readjust as needed.

Until next time...
Karma