What comes after the happy ending??

Kamaic Quote:
“Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.”
— Unknown

2005 has ended with a whimper...thank goodness, I was tired of the whining! I'm excited about 2006. First, I have a renewed focus on getting onto the excercise bandwagon. I'm simply tired of being a couch potato. Don't get me wrong, I love the couch and I love potatoes, but the two together have got to go!

I'm not making weight loss a New Year's "resolution" per se...because I realize this shouldn't be a flippant response to a new year full of hope and promise...that being said, I do think with the new year comes new opportunities. My opportunity comes in the form of an excercise class at the University...it works perfectly into my schedule. It meets twice a week and it focuses on Gluts & Guts! Just what I need! Well, ok...I need more than this, but it's a good start anyway!

I saw it, and I thought this is it...only I can change my behavior. I can't wish away the pounds or dream of diet success, I have to work and work hard to succeed. I know I have it in me to follow through to complete a goal...hell, I worked for 16 years to get my Bachelor's Degree. There were points where I nearly gave up, but eventually, I got what I went after.

In fact, part of my problem is that my goal to this point in my life has been completing school...now that I've done it, I feel a little lost. Like, what do I do now?? People ask me, "Now that you have your degree, what are you going to do with it?"

The answer, sadly, is not much. Most people expect that I was going for a degree in order to get a better job, or more money, or have an alternate career...the truth is that I simply wanted to educate myself. Perhaps a little vainly, I wanted to be seen by others as an "educated" person. So, great....I got my heart's desire...it's a happy ending!! But now what??

I feel like I'm lost at sea without a compass...or an oar, for that matter! I've had this one goal for 34 years! 34 years of classes...ok, maybe 30 years, I wasn't Baby Einstein...geesh! It seems unreal that for the first time in my life I don't have a class I need to take...I'm actually weaning myself off of schoolwork by auditing a course this quarter. It won't be for a grade, a FIRST for me!! Grades have always been very important to me! To take a class simply for the joy of it...wow...it will be a startling new experience.

But then what? What happens next in my life? I guess, it's time I focus on a new 30 year goal!! I think health, weight loss and activity is a good one. Like with school, there will be times that I struggle...or times I feel like giving up...or times when I simply "skip" a day and do whatever I want...

So no New Year's resolutions for me....simply a lifetime resolution to treat my body better than I have over the last 34 years! With a little courage, strength and perseverence I'm hoping better health will be the payoff!

Until next time...
Karma